The Scamp and the Gratitude Challenge: Week 27 and 28

Greetings from California.

Yep. I’m currently sitting on my mom’s couch in California. I’ve been here for a few days. I was too embarrassed to admit it sooner. I got bent over a table by the UK visa process, and the only way to get the visa was to return to my country of birth and go through the application process….again.

The process should be well in hand now, but I cannot help but keep thinking that something else is going to go wrong, and my life is going to be further delayed by my bad luck. I’ve been working while I am here, but I feel like I am still in limbo, and I feel like there is a huge disconnect between me and my job right now.

Because of that, feelings of gratitude are hard to come by at this moment. I feel like I say that each time I write one of these posts. Week 27 is all about my favorite spot in the city. Right now, my favorite place is the pool at my parent’s house. I’ve been hiding out there during the day trying to get some sun and fresh air.

2014-08-22 22.33.53If I get to the pool at just the right time of the day then it is quiet and empty. I can get some good reading in, or swim a few laps and remind myself how badly out of shape I have gotten since I gave up my days as a swimmer. Even when I get to the pool at the wrong time and it is full of screaming kids, obnoxious teenagers, or other quite people, I still like to be there. We have lived here for a long long time. I have some great memories of this pool. We used to have all our friends over at the end of the year for swim parties, and when we still had our cat, Socks, he dug a hole under the fence and used to come into the pool area with us and sit under my mom’s lounge chair while we swam. After awhile, everyone who used the pool knew who he was.

At home, my favorite place is Victoria Street. It is a little street that connects Grassmarket, a ritzy tourist area with the Royal Mile. It was one of the first streets I was ever on in Scotland, and offered my connection to the city. It has great painted storefronts, and I bought a dress on there that remains one of my favorites. There is even a small pub called the Bow Bar that boasts over 100 different types of Scotch.

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I am looking forward to getting back to Scotland and finally settling down in my new place, so I can pick a new favorite spot in the city. I’m excited to wander around and see what I can find living near the shore. All I need now is for the British government to recognize that I am no threat to their country, and I can get on with my new life.

This little detour will not dampen my spirits anymore than it already has.

A Scamp and a Sunny Day

Today was a beautiful day. The sun was out, it was warm by Scotland standards, and I was actually able to make good progress on my research paper. Despite all of that, I was still feeling a bit blue today. David sent most of my stuff back, and the finality of the situation makes me a bit sad. He kept a few things I was hoping that he would send back, and my worry is that he will just throw them away when he comes across them. To keep myself from thinking about that, I went for a walk. I had intended to sit in the park and read a book, but I couldn’t shut off my brain, so I wandered around the park a little before returning to my room to try and get more work done….and by get more work done, I mean look at cute animal pictures on the internet.

Seriously, the internet is a dangerous place. I think this video about sums up my mood as of late. A little unsteady, a little unsure, but ultimately triumphant  Also, I am awkward as they come, and let’s face it, so are giraffes.

Tomorrow I finally have a meeting to get a supervisor for my dissertation  and I can finally start making plans to wrap up my time here in Scotland. A month ago I really wanted to go home and settle in to my life with David, and now, I am sad that my time will be up in 6 weeks. I’m hoping this trend in the weather continues so that I can spend more days wandering around the city when I should be working.