Today I was at a loss. It is only day three of the challenge, and I could not for the life of me think about an activity I could do that would make me happy.
I went to work and then conducted some focus groups for a research project, and while my brain was full of work mode until about 5 pm.
This is where my amazing teammates come into play. As we were walking away from an eye opening session, I made the comment about my quest for one bit of happiness a day, and told them that I was at a loss for what to do. They asked me about my favorite meal, or movie, and then suggested that we go across the street so that I could have ice cream for dinner.
The fact that they wanted to partake in my challenge meant a lot to me. I really value their friendship, and I welcome any chance I have to spend with them outside the confines of class. Instead of ice cream, we ended up at a tasty taco shop and shared stories of travels abroad, issues we have with our program, and how horrible UK Mexican food is.
I’ve realized lately that I crave human connection. I crave social activity, and time away from my own thoughts, which tend toward the negative. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking in the time between doing things that make me happy, and I think I am finally starting to understand what I want, who I want, and what changes I really need to make to be happy.
Some of the choices that I have to make are starting to seem like they are going to suck.
Really really suck.